Happily Sad :-)-:

A thing only exist in the place where it's opposite subsides.  Therefore, nothing in life can prevail without the other different, yet paralleling presence of it's reversed and paradoxical counterpart.  An example of this truth is the ability to understand joy as a direct knowing of pain.  Now this does not discount the ability to discern, but it does suggest that one can never fully understand a thing without having lived in a place of it's opposite.

SMACK!

Today jealously tossed it's angry hand toward my face and slapped the taste out of my mouth.  I lifted my head, spat out the blood, and iced my swelling lips. 

-Jay Wall-

It's funny how the smallest words can trigger such furious emotions to hit you.  "My great great great grandfather" were those words for me today.  They struck me so deeply because I, a very young woman, could only count one "great" back, and the words were being spoken by an older woman who easily counted 3 "greats" back.  As I walked a few steps ahead of the woman and her envious conversation I reminded myself that it's not about the length of the lineage line, but about the amount of impact the heritage has had.  I picked up my pace, escaped the begrudging behavior and went ahead on my path.

Fear + Fear = Fear Destroyed

Fear is one one of those things that takes on great forms.  Most of the time it hides in the darkest of corners, and becomes ambiguous by disguising itself with beautifully adorned costumes.  In this place it begins to grow arms and legs, and eventually it just starts walking with you hand-in-hand.  Fear in this form may become un-recognizable because it does not take on the normal characteristics of fear.  Maybe you're angry because no one sees your pain, but the reality is that you're to afraid to let anyone see you cry.  Or maybe you're frustrated with the people you've been dating, but in reality you're afraid to find and/or be loved. Perhaps you feel stagnant, but the reality is that you're afraid of moving into the ever-changing, scary, unforeseen and unpredictable future.  If you have allowed fear to grow in certain areas of yourself, work hard to up-root it.  Dig deep into your emotions, sift through your thoughts, and take notes of your actions.   Fear is destroyed by doing exactly what you're afraid to do, so don't let fear in any shape or form manifest in your life. 

Stop Passively Waiting

Waiting is an active state of being.  A common verb most recognized in it's passive state, being used to demonstrate how one allows something else to perform an action in their life.  In this passive form waiting is silent, non-mobile and powerless.  Re-examine the relationship between yourself and waiting.  Take control of your life, and start actively waiting.

Luck Does Not Exist

Nothing happens by chance.  There is, however, a place that exists in time, where preparation meets opportunity; and the juxtaposition between the two yields favor on behalf of the one who is prepared to receive.  This place, this space in time, this moment, should be cherished because it is a blessing.  Collect these blessings, some clear, others vaguely recognizable, for at some point you will need to use them throughout your life in order to help you fulfill your purpose. 

Full Grown Children

Life gives everyone several opportunities to learn, thus presenting them with the chance to become wiser; but fools seem to miss each time life presents them with such favorable circumstances.  As if on purpose, they seem to fail time and time again and never learn anything from their mistakes nor their successes.  Fools tend to go through life existing, but not living; and growing older, but not wiser.  It's unfortunate that there are several old fools, who can indistinguishably be as wise as a very young children.  While there are arguably many issues with these types of people, the most capricious characteristic they display is ignorance.  They fail to understand that wisdom is a composition of growth and knowledge.  As a result, they never tap into the place inside themselves where all that which has been learned resides, and knowledge starts to mature into wisdom.  Believing that the parallelism of age and wisdom exist is not being optimistic, it's being unaware of the truth that the two are very separate entities.

Bearing

I believe that everyday of your life you learn something new, or expand upon your understanding of something old.  This knowledge can come to you in any way shape or form; and through, or by-way-of, any medium or vessel.  Today while sitting in traffic, this truck pulled up beside me carrying a very heavy concrete load.  It was tied down by several yellow ropes and held up by a foundation made of small blocks of wood.  I was in awe.   Why was this image so captivating to me?  Why was I drawn to it like a Monet painting, or a Bernini sculpture.  Eventually it hit me, that in that moment I was seeing the visual to my very own existence.  The small wooden blocks were imperfect and probably individually useless, and when they were being cut they more than likely had no real purpose.  The small blocks were stacked and stacked and stacked.  And now they serve as a solid foundation having the ability to withstand what appears to be a load way to heavy to bear.